I could easily freak out about what’s about to happen. In fact, even a year ago I would have been in pieces over it. As a child, I was nervous. As an adult, I’m nervous. I have nerves, okay?
Until recently (and let’s be honest, still most of the time), I hated change like a fat kid hates greens. I didn’t want it in my life and would pretty much fight it any chance I got. Which led to a pretty stagnant year or two for me. I didn’t do much. I spent my weekends in my bedroom binge watching Friends and writing songs. Now, let’s also be clear that those are still two of my favorite things to do. But life is about movement. When you’re moving, you’re living. When you’re living, you’re doing what we were created to do.
I’m about to embark on a journey that has the possibility of…
-being very hard
-being very wonderful
-changing my entire path in life
-revolutionizing my independence
-making some lifelong friendships
-bringing me face to face with some harsh realities
And as I sit and imagine the future, I’m filled with fear. And then I realize who I’m with and that fear melts away. But I forget, every couple of moments, who I’m with, and the fear comes back. If I’ve learned anything in the past two years, it’s that growing up is hard and not nearly as glamorous as they made it look, but also that if you do it right, it’s one of the easiest thing to let happen. All you need is: God, a support system that speaks truth into your life, courage in who God made you to be, and an ongoing trust that you won’t end up losing all of those things and finding yourself alone.
So, I’m headed to Nashville. A place I’ve never been before, to live with a group of people I’ve never met, to study, in fact, something I’ve never even tried. All of those things would normally have me barricading my bedroom door.
But for the first time, I believe that God has a plan for my life. And that he is so very right there beside me every single moment of the day that any time I find myself filled with fear again, I can just breathe and remember who I have to hold on to.
I’m so blessed. We all are. We just might have to open our eyes a little wider to realize it.
Wish me luck & prayers are always appreciated.
-L
Until recently (and let’s be honest, still most of the time), I hated change like a fat kid hates greens. I didn’t want it in my life and would pretty much fight it any chance I got. Which led to a pretty stagnant year or two for me. I didn’t do much. I spent my weekends in my bedroom binge watching Friends and writing songs. Now, let’s also be clear that those are still two of my favorite things to do. But life is about movement. When you’re moving, you’re living. When you’re living, you’re doing what we were created to do.
I’m about to embark on a journey that has the possibility of…
-being very hard
-being very wonderful
-changing my entire path in life
-revolutionizing my independence
-making some lifelong friendships
-bringing me face to face with some harsh realities
And as I sit and imagine the future, I’m filled with fear. And then I realize who I’m with and that fear melts away. But I forget, every couple of moments, who I’m with, and the fear comes back. If I’ve learned anything in the past two years, it’s that growing up is hard and not nearly as glamorous as they made it look, but also that if you do it right, it’s one of the easiest thing to let happen. All you need is: God, a support system that speaks truth into your life, courage in who God made you to be, and an ongoing trust that you won’t end up losing all of those things and finding yourself alone.
So, I’m headed to Nashville. A place I’ve never been before, to live with a group of people I’ve never met, to study, in fact, something I’ve never even tried. All of those things would normally have me barricading my bedroom door.
But for the first time, I believe that God has a plan for my life. And that he is so very right there beside me every single moment of the day that any time I find myself filled with fear again, I can just breathe and remember who I have to hold on to.
I’m so blessed. We all are. We just might have to open our eyes a little wider to realize it.
Wish me luck & prayers are always appreciated.
-L